Yesterday was a busy a busy day. While Robert was in school, I managed to get some shopping done. I also saw a nice bathrobe I thought to add to Robert clothing change. It's pink, fluffy cotton, with a belt that ties around the waist. He wore it last night, but I'm getting ahead of myself. Helga, some things happened last night that I haven't seen for a long time.
Last night after Robert had his bath, I usually go in and dry his back for him. You can see it doesn't seem to bother him for me to see him naked. He does seem to keep his back to me, I dry his back, and then leave him to finish up. I had laid a pair of the panties I had bought on my bed... thinking for this first attempt it would be more appropriate to bring him into my room... thinking it would be a start for him to be in a more feminine surroundings, than his own bedroom. When he came into my room, I was sitting on my bed with the panties in my hand. He had a towel around his waist, and I told him to sit with me, I had something to tell him.
He didn't take his eyes off the panties all the time I was talking. I started by tell him I was not happy with his behavior, that I had tried to be fair to him, but my patience had run out. I said that we, him and I were going to be mother and daughter until he learned to behave. "Now get off the bed and stand in front of me". By this time he was more or less out of control, screaming that I was a bad mother, that he was not a girl, wouldn't be, and so forth. I told him if he didn't put the panties on, he could stay in my bedroom until he did. I left and waited for him to come out, he tried two times to come out with just the towel, and I ordered him back, repeating what I had said. It must have been two hours before he came out, crying his eyes out, but wearing the panties.
Helga, if looks could kill, I'd be dead, I was surprised to see that he had put on the panties correctly, beings they were made different from male undies. He didn't try to hide anything with his hands, I went and got the new robe I had bought, and handed it to him. He again went into a screaming fit, throwing the robe down. I said, fine, you can walk around with just your panties on... emphasizing, panties.
I said, Robert, you and I are going to get through this together, now it is up to you, your behavior must change. He had stopped screaming and now there were just sob's. He came towards me, wrapped his arms around me, saying, please mom, I'll be good, I promise. I said, no Robert, it isn't going to be like that, your going to learn to be a more gentle and understanding boy, and we, you and I, are going to learn how and why girls can behave much better then boys. In order for you to understand, you will be dressed every day when you come home from school, in girls clothing. Each time, you and I will sit down and talk about things you can do to better understand your feelings.
Helga, for the rest of the evening, he sat with me watching TV, he seemed to become calmer, but I knew it was too soon for things to change. It is hard for me to understand why, he sat so calmly, like he almost became dolce, not sure if that's the correct word. I did notice when his robe became open, he would quickly cover himself, modesty, all ready!! (smile) I didn't insist he wear any of the other clothes yesterday, it was getting late, I was tired and I knew he was.
I seem to have said a lot already, not sure you needed all of this, but I find it difficult at times to find the right words, to convey how things went.
Thank you for your letter Barbara. This is almost as much about you as it is him, your attitude, your willpower are what will make this a success, I know you have the strength, the self confidence to do this, I can tell. You are off to a great start. This is for him to become a better, more gentle person, it will also likely be a battle of wills at first and if you give in or back down, you're done and he will know it and the real loser will be him.