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Dear Auntie Helga, Below I have out lined some key parts of my life, they are written solely from memory and some of the stuff I can remember so clear as you will see. Forgive me if I got carried away with detail on some of it, but please feel free to shorten it or cut out some bits if you find them inappropriate or too detailed. I really love my feminine side but also love women, I am totally straight but don't really have that many male traits, after reading you will probably see why. I included a good bit of detail so you can get the complete picture. Well I am real sissy/ girlie boy nothing masculine about me at all yes even down there, although I am in my late 20's I'm still only developed to the stage of (well taking a guess) a 10 or 11 year old. I suppose it might be down to the female dominance in my life and the lack of male presence as a boy/girl. Don't get me wrong I am glad though, as I never have to worry about unwanted bulges in my skirts, as pencil shirts or skirts suits are not so forgiving towards little bulges. I really love looking my best while dressed as a Girl. I am not a transgender I still want to be male but totally accepted as a girl, it is just the clothes part of being a girl that I am attracted to. As you will see my wonderful girlfriend is aware of little of a man, how much of a woman that I am, she also helped me write this to you so I think it will be a help to some wife/girlfriend out there that has discovered her husband/boyfriend like wearing her clothes. We think it is a wonderful gift and embarrassed it and made us strong. At first it was odd and freaky but we worked through it. To begin my name is Al short for Alex, and at this time I was 9 years old. I have four sisters ranging from between 1 to 6 years my senior. Starting from the youngest- Michelle, Niamh, Deirdre and the oldest Lynda. We lived with my mom (Marian) as dad had left us when I was very young. Mom worked 9.30am to 6pm as this enabled her to get us ready for school and walk with us on her way to work as both schools (boys and girls) were on the way. In the evening her sister Aunty Kathleen would collect us and we would do our home work and stuff until mom colleted us. Aunty Kathleen has 2 daughters Trina is the same age as Lynda and Karen the same age as Niamh. My sisters were always well be behaved but on the other hand I was a real troublemaker and thing got so bad at times I upset my mom to the point of tears, I was always annoying to my mom sisters and even aunt Kathleen and her daughters. Mom and aunt always passed this off as me just being a boy and that young boys are just troublesome. On several occasions after my disturbance of the peace, my aunt and mom would often say it would be so much easier if I was born a girl. She would often say to me while she would try to discipline me I have a good mind to dress you as a girl and treat you as one until you learn to behave, she would never say this while anyone else was there, until one day at aunty Kathleen's when I broke a window while trying to hit one of my sisters with my ball. Mom just happened to be looking out the sitting room window and saw the whole thing and heard the kitchen window smash. She immediately called me in and of course my sisters and cousins ran in to see the, then mom spanked me and said (for the first time with the girls and aunt Kathleen listening) I have a good mind to dress you up in your sisters clothes and treat you like a little girl until you start to behave properly. At this the girls giggled and my aunt to embarrass me said and what a lovely little girl you would make, mom then said if I misbehave again this is what she would do! I cried and ran out in the back yard and quickly forgot the whole thing. A week or had passed by and I was out playing in our own back yard when my sisters were heading over to a birthday party for on of Michelle's friends- Jacque. Although I didn't want to go I was jealous and as little boys often are, they were all dressed in pretty looking dresses so I got the garden hose and sprayed water all over them. They were drenched and ran back into the house crying when mom saw them she got very cross and she also had helped them to get all dressed up again in dry clothes. She then caught me and for the first time ever she pulled down my pants and spanked my bare bottom, the girls were shocked but started to giggle, then Lynda said mom you know you said if he was ever again cross you would dress him in our clothes, I cried even louder begging and said- mom please don't I will be really good from now one please don't! So at that she let me go saying little man you have one more chance! And I ran off out in the yard and my sisters changed their clothes and headed over to the party taunting me saying, did I want to go to a girls party. Soon after my mom called me to help her with the laundry, of course I didn't want to as I was never helpful around the house, but she made me separate all the different colour clothes to get ready for the wash. When I wanted I was a bit helpful but the trouble to get me to do stuff it was seldom worth it. As I sorted through the clothes I came across all sort of funny looking clothes but most humorous of all, was my mums tights. They felt and looked really weird. As like all young boy I very inquisitive but didn't want to be seen look at these awful things, as I was looking at them (without I noticing as I was too busy trying to figure what they were) the legs fell down in front of my legs, I never knew mom was watching me and after a few minutes she said Alex (she and everyone else always called me Al but this was one of the occasions she referred to me as Alex) do you like those? I quickly threw them from me, with an embarrassed look saying, they are weird looking things. At this I was really embarrassed and my mom knew this, she saw a different side of me unlike the macho little man, I was now an embarrassed little boy. To see more of this side of me I think my mom just carried on a the conversation by saying- but they are really stretchy and those fit me, she put her hand into them a showed she said her put you hand in there and see I refused, she said, my god I cant believe you are afraid of a pair of nylons? so at that I slowly put in my hand. She said now that wasn't so bad, but I still thought the felt weird. She then showed me how they were put on, by rolling both legs up to her knees. It was the first time Id seen these thing being put on, as a little boy it never crossed my mind before, she then said do you want to try them on, I was really stern in my answer and said no and continued sorting the washing. She smiled and said I was cute when I was embarrassed! As a little boy I hated hearing this and at that she walked away. Needless to say I didn't do that job for a long time again. A few days later one morning when I went to my undies drawer I was shocked as on top there lay a pair of tights brand new still in the box with a note attached from mom saying - I know you were a little shy so in your own time you can try these on as I know how curious young boys are, no harm in trying them on. Of course I didn't put them on and days went by and eventually curiosity go the better of me and I tried them on I thought the felt horrible and put them back in the box, and back under all my undie's in the drawer. A few days later when everyone was out except my mom, she was in the sitting room I tried them on again and sort of thought they were ok, and kind of liked the feel of them as I walked and the sound seemed very addictive, so I decided to maybe see what else I could out on with them. After some time I went into my sister room and tried on one of her skirts. I even thought the skirt felt nice in an odd way as I turned and it swished around my legs it just felt so nice and I felt sort of light headed, I then slipped on a pair of my sisters little patent shoes and a frilly blouse, I was so caught up in the whole thing I never heard my sisters coming in the front door and up the stairs. It was too late to leave the room and I hadn't any of my own clothes to put on so I had to hide in her wardrobe. My heart was thumping mad hoping they wouldn't open the wardrobe doors. Then I heard more voices some of my sister's friends! To my horror after few minutes they opened one of the doors to get something out of the wardrobe but it was not the door I was behind, I was trembling. Eventually after what felt like a life time, they left and I waited for a few moments and came out of the wardrobe and was heading out of the room and into my own when I heard my moms voice at the end of the hall saying Alex what are you doing, come here right now! I was red to my ears as she looked at me with my sister clothes. She said do you like those clothes? I see you like the tights I gave you. At this I heard my sister come up the stairs and I pleaded with mom not to let them see me, she said ok go hide in her bedroom. There I was in my Mom's room with my sisters clothes on and not a stitch of my boys clothes to be seen, after what seemed like hours she came in and chatted to me asking did I like being dressed as a little girl? to which she got the reply I definitely do not and hated it and explained what happened. She then said - well young lady and smiles saying sorry, young man there will be consequences for invading your sisters privacy, I have been thinking since that I have a good mind to leave you dressed like that for the evening and let your sister see you, I begged pleaded and cried and said I would never again misbehave if she didn't let them see me. She then thought for a while and said, ok, Go take those clothes but wait there one minute first and she fumbled in a drawer. I wasn't paying much heed and all of a sudden I saw a flash, she took a photo of me I was shocked but she said stand up and smile for her I refused and she said, will I call your sisters? So she took a few more photos and said, these are so you will keep your word you lady and smiled, she said go into your room and change and I will return your sisters clothes tomorrow while she is out, and don't ever again go into any of their room without permission. I went to my room and got undressed; I hid the tights she gave me, until I tried to figure out what I would do with them. The following morning as I was passing Mom's room on the way to breakfast I threw them her room door. So then I thought that's the end of that? Until! The following morning while I eating my breakfast my mom whispered- I forgot to ask you the other day, did you like your new tights? I whispered back I didn't put them on, to which she whispered oh but you did I saw them one you, I said no they were my sisters, she then said Alex they never go back in the box the same as they come out once stretched they don't go back as tidy. I was embarrassed and went to play until the girls were ready for school. The girls school was first so it left some time for mom to talk to me she then said if I wanted different colours she would get them and showed me all the different colours all the moms at were wearing that morning, she also offered to buy me my own skirts and stuff if I wanted? there were almost tears in my eyes when I said but mom I don't want them! She saw I was getting upset so she stopped. The subject wasn't mentioned again for a long time after that. A few weeks even months had passed and we had just finished school for the summer, when I was up to my mischievous self out in the back yard when my football was dirty as the grass was wet and one part of the lawn had little grass on it from been constantly trampled by myself, so dirt was sticking to the ball each time it landed there. The evening had brightened up a bit, so Lynda was hanging out loads of washing mostly there dresses and jumpers knickers and some tights. When she had gone in I started to kick my dirty ball at the newly washed clothes Deirdre and Niamh saw this and ran into mom and told her. She came out the back and was furious as two of the dresses were on bought last week. Right there and then she pulled down my pants and spanked me, Lynda said mom I'm just after thinking, you said the next time he is bold you are going to dress him like a girl I cried and promised I would never again do anything like that again, but my sisters said I said that loads of times before, so mom thought for a while and a smile came to her face saying look Alex, I have decided what you punishment is going to be, you are to wash all these dirty clothes in the sink by hand I said but mom that is going to take ages and her reply was well it will teach you not to do that again. When you are finished get all washed up and change out of those dirty clothes. I refused to wash the clothes, and my mom whispered do you want me to tell your sisters about 'your' tights and about you putting you hand in my tights. I said but mom I don't have tights maybe not she said but do want me to tell them about putting your hand to my tights I had put in for the wash or even tell about you wearing their skirts and stuff? Or how about I show them the photos of their lovely little sister? At this I agreed and she showed me what to do and I proceeded to wash the dresses and stuff. During this time there was no sign of my mom and sisters, I had finished washing the clothes so I hung them out and watched some TV. Soon after mom shouted down from upstairs are you finished? I said was, and they were all back on the clothes line. She said get washed up so and change those dirty clothes. As I passed her room she said leave the dirty ones outside the bathroom door and she would wash them and she will have clean ones on the bed for me. So I had a shower dried and went into my room with a towel around me. As I entered my room I could smell perfume, I saw clean clothes on my bed alright but to my horror I saw a skirt, blouse, cardigan, tights, panties, a slip and girls shoes, so called mom and said where were my clean clothes? she replied "on your bed" I looked around and saw no other clothes only the girls clothes. She then said hurry on a get ready we will be having supper soon, I replied saying but these are girls clothes. By this time she was at my room door and said - yes! You were warned loads of times so put them on or I will get your sisters to dress you, to which I hear the girls say please! Please! mommy can we dress him it would be fun after all look what he did to our clothes, she said we will give her, I mean him a chance to dress first if he doesn't then you can. At that my sister stood outside my door saying please Alex let us dress you? Tears formed in my eyes and I thought I had no choice but then I thought, I can just get my own clothes from the wardrobe so I went over and opened the wardrobe and was gob smacked to see all my boys clothes were replaced with girls clothes! I further looked around and saw all of my boys toys and comic books were gone and replaced with dolls, girls stuff and girlie magazines! My undies drawers were full of panties, slips, girlie socks and a few pairs of tights. I began to cry and shout to mom were had all of my clothes and stuff gone? She said there are all the in your room, I said where is my boys clothes and stuff she said she has my toys and stuff and Lynda shouted we have your clothes hidden somewhere safe and mom said because you were always so mean to us, you are getting them back when we decide. I said, but mom! and at that she said be ready in the next few minutes or I'm sending in your sisters and in case you are thinking in locking your door I have confiscated your key! I was sobbing away looking at the clothes so I began to get ready and mom peeked in the door and said, Alex the tights go outside the panties. Now I don't want to embarrass you any more than necessary so don't force me to tell Michelle you were wearing her clothes the other day! Or don't force me to send your sisters in here to dress you, so hurry up. With tears in my eyes I put on the white frilly panties and just as I was looking at the tights mom said remember how I showed you to put those on, I bought new ones the other day in your size for you as I knew this was going to happen eventually, well I was sick of warning you, at that she went away again. After a struggle I got the tights on, they made my legs look a very light brown. I then put on the white slip the, blouse and flowery skirt, then the cardigan and the shiny black shoes tying the back straps on each. I sat on the bed sobbing away when I heard mom saying, are you ready if not I'm sending in your sisters. I didn't reply so at that she said girls check up on your new little sister. Without hesitation they opened the door and charged in, looked at me and started laughing Lynda then said oh mom he looks so pretty, can I do his hair at that I was in tears. Then mom walked in and said no Lynda you cant do "his" hair but ye all can give a hand to do "her" hair your new little sister, am sure ye will had loads of fun but make it quick as supper will be soon. I started bawling crying and my mother said listen here now young lady you will have to do what your sisters tell you after all you owe it to them after the way you have treated them with the last few years, if there are any protests from you or if you still bold girl I will let your sisters dress you every day in whatever they want and how ever many times they want, so be a good girl and do what they say and you can dress yourself each day in the privacy of your own room in the clothes I choose. So at that they took me into Michelle's room and put on a wig on me (that mom had purchased a few weeks previous) and brushed it tying it with two red bows at each side. Lynda put on some make up on me just a small bit. We headed down the stairs and ate supper, I didn't feel much like eating but I had some bit. When we were finished mom said ok girls tidy up and winked at Lynda, she then said Alex will you tidy up and brush the floor, I looked at mom and refused and she said remember what happens if you don't? I cried and mom said Girls I think your little sister wants you to dress her tomorrow. At this I quickly hopped up and did what she said. Mom then said to leave the brushing of the floor for later as we have visitors calling. I quickly said who? To this she replied Aunty Kathleen, Trina and Karen as Your sisters were so delighted with their new sister they wanted to let them see you. I again cried and said it wasn't fair to let others see me this way; it was bad enough that my sister saw me this way. Mom said it was only fair the got to see me as well as I also was so mean to them. At this the door bell rang my mom said, Alex that is for you are you going answer it, I didn't really have a choice as they were going to see me anyway, as I opened my aunt said oh my god don't you look pretty and my cousins just giggled. After hours of admiring, giggling and watching me doing stuff they asked me to without argument or question, even when Aunt Kathleen and my cousins asked me to do stuff I did it without hesitation. Aunty Kathleen said Alex you are just such a good little girl and so adorable, she said she couldn't get over the change and how wearing the girl clothes had such a positive effect on me, she and mom joked and said it was such a pity I wasn't born a girl, then Michele said it didn't matter because from now on Alex can be our sister think of the fun we will have and we can still call her Alex as that is also girls name, at this they all laughed and said you might me right. Then my mom and aunt called us all together and said this was our secret and was never to beyond the 9 of us and if my sisters or cousins told anyone they were going to be sent away to boarding school. All the girls agreed as they detested the thought of that type of school. At that my mom and sisters brought my boys clothes down stairs and gave them to my aunt and cousins, mom said that can be given to the charity shop and that when I was going back to school in September, she would get me some new boys clothes. I said but you said I was to only stay dressed like this for as long as my sisters decided, to which she smiled and said, yes I did and they all agreed that you are to stay dressed as their sister for the rest of the summer. Saying do you not think its only right? You definitely owe them this much, after years of torment from you, to the point they always had to play your games, your way, messing up their games, their rooms, taunting them and their friends, I think young lady its time they had a summer that they will enjoy, for once. I just couldn't believe my ears and stormed up to my room, mom then said Alex come down here honey or I'm sending up your sisters to dress you remember that agreement? So back down I came. For the rest of the summer I wasn't left outside the door and when my friends called over mom told them I was gone on holidays for the summer to my dad and named some town 300 miles away, as they were told this, one by one they didn't call anymore. So there I was with absolutely none of my boy boys clothes left in the house for the rest of the summer and my sister trousers were even too girlie to pass as boy's clothes. In fact the only interaction I had were my sister cousins and aunt. The only time I was left out was to go to my aunts to visit. For the next three years, evenings, weekends and holidays I was Alex their sister. We all even started to get on really well and I became accustomed to being a girl and was always well behaved, and I always did what I was told, and after the second year I began to like being treated like a girl and living life as one. When I was 14 the summer came and my sisters still wanted me to be a girl, but I said to mom that I have been so good could I wear my boys clothes? she thought about it and said ok seeing you were so good with the past few years I think you might have learned your lesson, but because I was so good as a girl that if I caused any trouble without question I was going straight back to being a girl. So I began being a boy again but I was on a probation period and was not left outside the house the only place I could go was Aunty Kathleen's house and at that some one of them would drive me there and drop me back! I agreed as I wanted so much to be a boy again. My sisters so wanted me to be their sister and to take off those horrid boys clothes and to stop playing boys games, but they never told mom. They secretly plotted how they were going to get me in trouble and they being girls did it so well. They said if I didn't get myself in trouble they would do something and blame me then they would do something else and then I would have to let them dress me. I had no choice and within 1 weeks I was back to being their sister again. Lynda was 20 and starting to become a very attractive young woman, for her birthday she had gotten a digital camera, the night she got it she said to me that we were going to have loads of fun with this. The girls were so delighted that I was back to being their sister but they wanted more they so much wanted to dress me they asked on several occasions but I totally refused! Then Lynda came up a with a plan were all in her room one night and she said did I mind If she took a photo of all of us with her new camera then so we all said ok then she took us individually. Later that night she said Alex I have proposition for you will you let us dress you and I wont show this photo to all our friends, I looked in horror at what she was saying and said you would do that to me and she said, rather than just asking you to let us dress you know without mom knowing and risk all of us getting caught I really want to get moms consent so if you get yourself in a bit of trouble then we can dress you and have great fun oh go on please! She then said there is no point in telling mom as she knows we don't misbehave and that you are the one that causes all the trouble so she will believe us. I didn't really have a choice so the next morning I refuse to put on my girls clothes and my mom warned she would send in her sisters as was the original agreement! Hence after some time she gave them permission that from now I was to let them dress me entirely including underwear if necessary, in what ever they wanted and as many time during the day that they wanted, for as long as they decided was necessary and left it totally up to them. So she rang Trina and Karen to come over, when the girls arrived in they came to my room all excited ripped off the bed clothes dragged me out of the room and into Lynda's room they took off all my clothes, So there I was in the nude I was crying at this stage, and my mom shouted up from downstairs stop crying you little girl or I will let the girls invite over their friends to see you. The girls had a really great summer and enjoyed every moment of dressing me up. My mom said if I refused that she would let the girls take me outside and a walk me over to Aunty Kathleen's wearing my sisters clothes but would also make sure I had a really short skirt on and take me passed the park where all the boys were playing, so without hesitation each time they wanted to dress me I let them do so. I thought she was kidding but she went shopping the following day and returned with a really short chiffon tiered Ra Ra skirt and hung it in my wardrobe as a reminder. So for the next year I was just totally controlled by my sisters, as such a real life doll for them. Never once even slightly misbehaving, Summer holidays came again and I asked mom could I live this summer as a boy and she (with my sisters encouragement) said after the way I acted last year lasting just one week coupled with being so well behave under the watchful eye of my sisters she decided I was definitely to spend the year as their sister, at this they jumped with joy. She also said that the humiliation of letting my sisters dress me seemed to work wonders and decided to show me that she had a few plans if I stepped out of line first she said the slightest bit of misbehaving by me and she would let my sisters tell some of their friends and if I miss behave again after that she would let them invite them over to see me and depending if I misbehaved badly she would also let my sisters friends join in dressing me up, and even if that wasn't enough depending if I was bad enough she would let them take me shopping dressed as a girl, even without a wig a make up if they wanted! She really made sure I was going to do what I was told! The girls got so excited to hear all these things and said I think you are going to be really good girl this summer, to which my mom smiled. As mom and aunty Kathleen left the room my sister and cousins were belated with happiness and I stormed out of the room and said to mom that I wasn't going to dress as a girl tomorrow, she said well young lady when you get up tomorrow morning your sister will dress you in whatever they think suitable, and if you do this then we will let you stay in the house but if you don't? I guess I'm going to have to let the girls take you out for the day. I just thought this is really getting worse by the minute and decided to ask her for one more chance to which she replied- I told you at the beginning of the holidays what the punishment would be if you stepped out of line! And it was to our discretion how severe pending the crime. She saw the tears in my eyes and said if you cry you are definitely going out with the girls tomorrow. I went to my room and was soon followed by Lynda and Trina, they sat on the bed and asked- was I ok to which I replied-what do you think? They smiled and said tomorrow will be so much fun! For us to show our friends, how much of a girl you have become? Compared to the little brat you were. We have waited so long to tell the girls about you, we are so excited! I think its definitely safe to say your days as a boy are over now, anyway you are a lot nicer as a girl and I'll bet you have much more fun as a girl. Morning came so quick I was woken really early by my sisters, then the usual long task of dressing me began, but today it took longer than normal, as they said, I have to look my best today. They started with a while lace bra with no straps on the shoulders next was a white slip. Next was something I never saw before a suspender belt and hold ups (tanned), and lace thong (first time seeing any of these) the giggled saying they couldn't believe that the thong covered everything, then a light brown frilly chiffon top with some black details pattern, a tan shade tiered RaRa skirt and black high heel sandals. Finished off with a brunette wig and some make up. When mom saw me she was amazed and said- oh my god Alex you look really pretty today, and complemented the girls on what a wonderful job they had done. They planned to get me enrolled in the girl's school and make up a story for my friends about me being sent to live with my dad and my sister (me) had come to live with my mom for the year. I also started to get really excited at the though of this! Attending an all girls school and being treated as one, )just to be clear I was in no way inclined to view this as a opportunity to see it in a perverted sort of way). It was at this stage I really started to wish I was born as a girl and not a boy, my mom meet the principle and unbelievably she agreed to enrol me for 1 year only as she understood. As luck would have it she also having a crossing son she said it was very brave thing to do and it was one of the ways I could discover/make up my mind if I wanted to be a girl or a boy. After talking to me for some time and realising how much I wanted this, it happened! I stayed back a year to join my sister Michelle. The final thing the principle said- she warned me that once I started the year I had to complete the whole year, and I had to attend last 2 years as a boy otherwise it may cause problems for enrolment for college. So for 4th year (2nd last year in secondary school (an extra optional extra curriculum study year) I was a full time girl. I have to admit I enjoyed it, although sometimes I wished I was back as a boy, but for the major part I was able to concentrate better, even got better grades, I really loved spending all my time dressed as a girl. I liked it so much I begged to spend my 2nd last year in secondary school as a girl and I promised if they (the principle and my mom) let me and once my sisters agreed I would do my final year as a boy on the boys school. After some deliberation and seeing how much my grades improved and how happy I was they all agreed, Mom and the principle said once I do the final year as a boy, I was so happy to hear this and so it was, I spent my 2nd year as a full time girl. During this time I was so happy and got on so well with everyone, I even ended up kissing one of Michelle's friends (one of the ones that knew about that whole thing and that had dressed me previously. (Although I love feminine clothes and I am a real sissy with hardly any masculine traits at all, I am totally straight and love being with girls, and still do). I completed my final year as a boy in the boys school. My college life began and so with it another interesting chapter of my crossing life. I moved into a house with 4 female housemates. All were very nice to the point that I started a relationship with one of them- Aisling. She was totally unaware of my cross dressing habits until one Friday evening I was in the house alone as all the girls had gone home for the weekend. I went into Aisling's room as I had done on many occasions before and tried on loads of her clothes, I had my digital camera with me (as always). I especially loved one outfit she had, a black skirt suit and black 4 inch stiletto's, white chiffon top, tanned nylon stocking, suspender belt, lace thong and bra.. To my surprise these were hanging on the outside of the wardrobe and the shoes were at on the ground below them. Scattered on the bed was loads of her lingerie, nylon stockings, suspender belt, lace slip, lace thongs, lace knickers & bra's. My heart missed a beat and I began to dress immediately. When dressed I took a few photos and looked through more clothes. I was feeling (as usual) ecstatic to the point that I didn't even hear the front door open and suddenly I heard a voice saying Alex! What the hell are you doing!? I turned around, it was Aisling not alone this but she had a camera and took photos of me. She said I thought some one was going through my stuff and I had suspicions it was you and several times I saw my skirt suit and Ra Ra skirts disturbed along with my nylons so I decided to make it easy for you to ensure I'd get a few photos. She said no more went down stairs, I had my PC left on with folder with photos of me in her clothes and some clothes belong to the other girls in the house, she inserted her USB stick in my pc and began copying the photos. I asked what she was going to do; I apologised and pleaded with her not to tell my friends. She got up and said - in one way I'm lucky to have a boyfriend like you, girlfriend and boyfriend in one. I asked her what she was going to do. She just looked at me, smiled and walked out the door. She returned on Sunday night and asked me to call up to her room, and said if you are going to dress like a woman and we were to stay together then I had to make more of an effort while cross dressed and asked me did I want her to help me, I couldn't believe it and agreed. So showed me how to wax, advised me to let my hair grow a little and took me shopping for me outfits. The summer holidays approached and I was beginning to look more feminine. She said that for a few weeks at the start of the holidays the two of us could stay in the house alone and have a little bit of girlie fun, I couldn't believe it for the first few weeks of the summer I was a girl again but this time with my partner. She did my hair in a more feminine hairstyle did my nails, I was totally hairless and had lost a load of weight, she even showed me how to walk like a woman, not swaying my shoulders and moving my bum a little more. I already knew this as I had been shown by my sisters but I said nothing and just played along. I spent about 4 weeks like this as a girl even going shopping with her as a girl. Then one evening as we were sitting on the couch she said that tomorrow evening she wanted me dress in very elegantly and looking my best as we were going to prepare meal, for some of her friends, my eyes opened in disbelief and totally refused. Then she said well I could always show them your photos and e-mail the photos to the guys in college. I have no choice and had to agree, she picked the clothes for me black lace bra & knickers, suspender belt, tanned nylon stockings, Dark blue chiffon top, black knee length pencil skirt and 4 inch Stilettos, did my hair in style- some tied up and some down. As they walked in and I will never forget their expressions, there were 6 girls there in total disbelief. As the night passed they really began to accept me and I was relaxed in their company. Aisling seemed happy with the whole thing and the reactions of the girls. We all went on loads of shopping trips after this and thy bough me loads of stylish outfits. You may think it odd for a guy to use this, but even though she accepted me as I was and I love her so much I still wanted to make her so happy as not many girlie boys are as lucky to meet someone as understanding as Aisling. We enjoy our time as boyfriend & girlfriend and equally as Girlie friends. I suppose my life so far has been full if unusual twists and turns but I know I am so lucky to be surrounded by women that genuinely understand and care, I hope this is a help to anyone and proof that things can happen, if we are lucky. I live for the days I spend with Aisling and her friends as a girl, shopping going out at night it really doesn't matter we love each others company as girlie friends. I also love when we spend time with my Mom, Aunt, Sisters, Cousins, their friend and Theresa. Well thats my life if you want to hear more please let me know as I would be glad to share. Alex Thank you for your letter Alex. I'm sure our readers would love to learn more of your upbringing, so please do write again sometime. Auntie Helga |